Why does it hurt so much? Waking up with this chest tightness sensation. How long will it be this way? And why does it have to be this way? This unbearable suffering and steady failure in this evil world, where people dismiss people, judge others by their appearances, cheat their own spouses, kill, rob, and humiliate. Where the kindness is so tacky, money is more important than everything, including happiness, people are dying starving, disasters are happening everywhere, there are not job opportunities for unemployed young people. Why world? Am I sentenced to the unhappiness?
Do not worry buddy, it is not that bad, just be honest, use what you have and use it for good, use it for teaching, helping and strengthening your relationship with God. When that sweet American song hits my ears, when that breeze from the summer touches my face, good memories come up to my mind, it sounds happiness. When I think about you I don't feel so lonely. I have seen that you're still here, tough by account you would not, they were wrong about you. No, I won't give up at all, and even if I fail again, it's okay, I can get through it. One day, this pain will be useful.